Oops. I made a big mistake.
Oops. I made a mistake. In my previous entry I left a note to a commenter stating that I believe Danica does appreciate me, but just doesn’t know what she wants.
I was evidently wrong. I am now single. Now, to get her out of this apartment as quickly as possible. Does anyone out there need a female roommate? She’s not really that tidy, but she’s quiet as a whisper!
Phase 2: Sadness (9:52 AM)
I almost vomitted crying. I think I need sleep.
My name is
Don’t worry, the sadness will pass, but it will be a while until that happens. This is perfectly normal. What’s important now is work. Concentrate on that and find some things that you’ve been wanting to do for a while and damnit do them! A weekend roadtrip, shopping, etc. Go out and treat yourself to something nice. This will pass, it hurts now but it will make you stronger in the long run, believe me i’ve been through this, and it makes you a stronger person in the long run, feels bad now, but you will survive!
Bob
11 Feb 05 at 10:23 AM
Oh god, and you just got that apartment. I’m so sorry everything turned out how it did. Contact me if you want to talk. ::hugs::
Gabrielle
11 Feb 05 at 2:14 PM
Sorry everything turned out the way it has, Meitar, and sorry Amberflame and I missed you earlier on #polyamory. I’ll be lurking about the channel for a while yet in case you want to talk. Hang in there!
Argentum
11 Feb 05 at 9:21 PM
Meitar: You do deserve better. Danica does not see you for who you are but for who she wants you to be: a matter and place of convenience. There is more to a relationship, monogamous or one of polymory, than convenience.
blondzila
13 Feb 05 at 12:14 PM
I did throw up crying all night. It is quite painful and sad,
but we do perservere. And look at the lovely door that
opened for you. Good luck with Sara, and everything beyond.
I have just spent over an hour reading about you and your work…
You are an incredibly intelligent, creative and caring person.
I was seeking Doug Bowman, but I don’t think it is you. So
perhaps you are related to him? maybe your father? He would be
oh…in his 40’s, a graduate of Duke Univ and lived in Mass 1990.
I would appreciate the pleasure of sharing a little more of your
knowledge, if you know him. I want to say “hey”.
Take care ~ be well.
Pamela
8 Jun 05 at 10:30 PM
Oops! I think I made a mistake and you are…Meitar, not Doug.
Please forgive me, I am a bit overwhelmed by life.
I hope you are well and happy, here & now. Take care~
Pamela
8 Jun 05 at 10:37 PM